Hear What'll / May Never Tell You.

List twenty (20) things you want to say to 20 people but know you never will.

Okay got this from coco, haha. Thought I'd write to vent stuff.

1. In this trying times, I remember you, you who seem to come out of nowhere and make me feel better after such tragedies in my life. Where are you now? Hell, I've been missing your company for such a long time. We've been friends since, such a long time, your my special friend.

2. For number two you'd never guess that I thought of you next. You are our protector, since the dawn of the 3rd year college days. One of the boys. Haha, I guess you know who you are now. You kept us out of trouble except for this one time you've gone awol which led us into such a mess, a mess which I'm thankful for.

3. Ehem, this one if for the one who I have not seen for quite sometime. Once you read this you'll know its you. I missing hanging out, those singing sessions, those drinking sprees, those in between lunch/dinner breaks and of course the coffee breaks. I remember when I started smoking you took my pack and started tearing cigs one at a time till I stopped you. haha. When are we gonna hang out again? Give me a text okay?

4. The first one. The first, you are my first. Although it's so hard to get in touch with you, we still do have those long long talks on the phone. As usual your wisdom puts dents in my stubborn follies. I have to talk to you, I need your wisdom now.

5. Y tu? Hahahahha. Que mas? Porke? We are the two most emo people in the world. Well that's my opinion. Believe it or not you are one of those people right now who are keeping me from falling apart. Im just so glad you were not there on that day to witness that sad painful spectacle, God was merciful enough that you went home five minutes before. I know you would have wanted to be there, but I don't know what you would have done, which I know may be for my good but not for hers. I know I'm stubborn, but I love and care for her more than I ever thought I will.

6. The one who taught me to smoke. Look what you did, now I just can't seem to stop especially in these trying times. Damn, it's so hard these days to hang out with you since well you know. I still think you better do something about your situation, but since your happy that way, I ll support you, but still tell you to do better. On other things, no more has to be said.

7. Hey, just wanted to say I'm sorry about that. I hope you understand why I did it. I really hope you do. I'm glad that's over, thanks for not staying angry for so long. Please just be there no matter what happens in the future. I'm kinda falling apart.Thanks always.

8. Thats it, the final draw. I gave you hints to stop it, so did the others. What hurts most is you could even say those things in front of me and in front of other people. If you did that while I was with her, we maybe would have fought then and there. I don't care if you're leaving, you better apologize if you want to be friends again, theres no way I'm gonna be the "big" person this time.

9. Yeah, we're in this situation right now. I don't know if you know what I'm going through... I got hurt countless times, but that does not matter to even one time you may get hurt because of me. You know what I want, you know what I feel for you. I'm trying everything. Yeah, I'm not ashamed to say this. I love you.

The remaining 11 to be added soon.